So my eyes and my heart have been open to some wonderful things, and some not so wonderful, although I'm not about to put ALL my business on blast I can definitely say my outlook on a few situations is a lot different...I'm not much of a poet and I'm feeling a little empty right now, but the mood I'm in has lead me to this...
Head Heart Coordination 6/7/08
Ears to the door
Eyes to the floor
I can't take this anymore
Your heart is fleeting
My soul is bleeding
For me, what exactly do you have in store??
For your words rarely sparkle
My knees don't weaken
Actually they've gotten stronger...
From bearing the brunt of your burden
Butterflies have left my stomach...
Through my bowels,
Yep, you have that **"it" factor
That's for certain
Nothin' personal.
I love poetry, so colorful...lol
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Thursday, June 5, 2008
What's in a name...
When I looked up Tiffany years ago I found it's the Medieval form of Theophania (there are various spellings of this). In addition I found:
1200 AD - "Tifinie" is used in Old French to mean "Epiphany." It derived from a similar Late Latin word which in turn came from the Greek "theophaneia," meaning an appearance or manifestation of God. ("Theo" = God, "phaneia" = appearance; the "phan..." element is related to such words as "phantom," "fantasy," and "fancy," but not to the "fan" in "fan club" or "fanzine," which is short for "fanatic," and is from a completely different etymological source.) A later French spelling is "Tiphanie."
Which is kind of interesting because my Mom's name, Angela, means messenger of God...even more interesting my real Father's name, Alwyn, (a variation of Alvin) means supernatural being...
And I usually don't do this but I had to jack it from RawDawgBuffalo, thanks! lol
1200 AD - "Tifinie" is used in Old French to mean "Epiphany." It derived from a similar Late Latin word which in turn came from the Greek "theophaneia," meaning an appearance or manifestation of God. ("Theo" = God, "phaneia" = appearance; the "phan..." element is related to such words as "phantom," "fantasy," and "fancy," but not to the "fan" in "fan club" or "fanzine," which is short for "fanatic," and is from a completely different etymological source.) A later French spelling is "Tiphanie."
Which is kind of interesting because my Mom's name, Angela, means messenger of God...even more interesting my real Father's name, Alwyn, (a variation of Alvin) means supernatural being...
And I usually don't do this but I had to jack it from RawDawgBuffalo, thanks! lol
What Tiffany Means
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 You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. |
This is pretty dead on if I do say so myself, though I think I have more of a Type B personality, and the last line, I've been trying to settle down since I was 10, lol.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Congratulations, it's a.....!!!!!
I'm going to get a lot of slack for this but this is something that's been on my mind for a while and I can't hold it anymore!!!!! Pregnancy.
Now, I don't know if people are bored, lonely, horny, if it's a fad or if they really think they're ready for a child but I swear, they thought teenage pregnancy was on the rise, try "early twenties" pregnancy. Man, I want to say about 75% of the girls I graduated with from high school were either pregnant then, pregnant now or already has a 2-4 year old child. DON'T GET ME WRONG I truly believe children are blessings but damn, this isn't 1866, we do not have to wed early or bear children early so why now? Do they not want to live their young lives to the fullest?
How I see it, you have kids early and/or marry early and have kids right away you don't really get a chance to experience your own life by yourself and I believe it is absolutely necessary to enjoy time with yourself before you start devoting yourself to someone else...and a new family. Shoot, you don't even get to know your partner as well because you're so busy working to take care of your "new accessory". You spend your lives raising your kids and when they go off to college and get along with their own lives you're stuck in this house with a spouse whom you realize you really don't know, then you start calling for your kids to come home EVERY holiday possible, even St. Patricks Day, lol...ok, a little extreme, but hey, I've seen it happen...
Ok ok, some people do have connections and they do last a long time but they are few, far between and fantasy and divorce has steady been on the rise just as single parenting. Needless to say I want a husband who fathers our children.....not a baby daddy.
I figure an average person graduates high school, then undergrad for 4-5 years, then you maybe get an apartment by yourself to fully enjoy not living under your parents wing and providing for yourself, then however long grad school takes, then maybe a doctorate, THEN you finally get to dive into your profession and maybe in the middle of all this chaos you've had time for a relationship, and depending on if it's serious or not engagement and then marriage, time alone with your spouse and then kids once you're financially and mentally stable. Whew! That's a lot and adding kids into the equation really makes things interesting...
I don't think I'm so much as surprised at the pregnancies than I am the amount of people who aren't practicing safer sex. If you're clean, your partner is clean, there's some type of BC and it's monogamous, hey, get busy and have a healthy sex life! But I don't understand the being in the heat of the moment, you had an accident...maybe it wasn't an accident, maybe you trapped him, maybe he trapped you, hmmm...because those 15 minutes of bliss are going to have you jacked up! lol, I'm wilding out a little bit on this subject but it's the truth and you know it, c'mon it's 2008 geeze! That accident could come with a whole lot more than just a baby! I think my views on certain issues have definitely gotten more rigid as I've gotten older...
Some might say I'm being insensitive, some might say these words may come and bite me in the ass some day but shit, I'm tired of keeping quiet, I'm seeing A LOT of "accidents" and that shit isn't cool in my book, sorry. But I guess it's also not my issue either, eh? BUT to all the moms and dad's handling their business and the mommies to be, I wish you nothing but the greatest that life and your bundles of joy have to offer you!!!
JMO!!! :)
Now, I don't know if people are bored, lonely, horny, if it's a fad or if they really think they're ready for a child but I swear, they thought teenage pregnancy was on the rise, try "early twenties" pregnancy. Man, I want to say about 75% of the girls I graduated with from high school were either pregnant then, pregnant now or already has a 2-4 year old child. DON'T GET ME WRONG I truly believe children are blessings but damn, this isn't 1866, we do not have to wed early or bear children early so why now? Do they not want to live their young lives to the fullest?
How I see it, you have kids early and/or marry early and have kids right away you don't really get a chance to experience your own life by yourself and I believe it is absolutely necessary to enjoy time with yourself before you start devoting yourself to someone else...and a new family. Shoot, you don't even get to know your partner as well because you're so busy working to take care of your "new accessory". You spend your lives raising your kids and when they go off to college and get along with their own lives you're stuck in this house with a spouse whom you realize you really don't know, then you start calling for your kids to come home EVERY holiday possible, even St. Patricks Day, lol...ok, a little extreme, but hey, I've seen it happen...
Ok ok, some people do have connections and they do last a long time but they are few, far between and fantasy and divorce has steady been on the rise just as single parenting. Needless to say I want a husband who fathers our children.....not a baby daddy.
I figure an average person graduates high school, then undergrad for 4-5 years, then you maybe get an apartment by yourself to fully enjoy not living under your parents wing and providing for yourself, then however long grad school takes, then maybe a doctorate, THEN you finally get to dive into your profession and maybe in the middle of all this chaos you've had time for a relationship, and depending on if it's serious or not engagement and then marriage, time alone with your spouse and then kids once you're financially and mentally stable. Whew! That's a lot and adding kids into the equation really makes things interesting...
I don't think I'm so much as surprised at the pregnancies than I am the amount of people who aren't practicing safer sex. If you're clean, your partner is clean, there's some type of BC and it's monogamous, hey, get busy and have a healthy sex life! But I don't understand the being in the heat of the moment, you had an accident...maybe it wasn't an accident, maybe you trapped him, maybe he trapped you, hmmm...because those 15 minutes of bliss are going to have you jacked up! lol, I'm wilding out a little bit on this subject but it's the truth and you know it, c'mon it's 2008 geeze! That accident could come with a whole lot more than just a baby! I think my views on certain issues have definitely gotten more rigid as I've gotten older...
Some might say I'm being insensitive, some might say these words may come and bite me in the ass some day but shit, I'm tired of keeping quiet, I'm seeing A LOT of "accidents" and that shit isn't cool in my book, sorry. But I guess it's also not my issue either, eh? BUT to all the moms and dad's handling their business and the mommies to be, I wish you nothing but the greatest that life and your bundles of joy have to offer you!!!
JMO!!! :)
Friday, May 30, 2008
Round 2 of Bringing Sexy Back!
So I've been exercising regularly and trying to eat better since April (about 7 weeks, this week made 8) and I've seen small changes. Face getting smaller, I can see my collar bone, arms more toned, my legs are definitely stronger and are looking a better, my ass is starting to sit up higher, my waist is shrinking, and my stomach has less of a round pregnant woman look to it, lol. My stamina during exercise is getting better even though I've really never had a problem with it.
As far as my diet changing I'm having less breakouts and the dark marks on my face are getting a lot lighter, and I'm more regular (TMI, I know, lol).
I know I'm getting used to all these changes because it starting to become second nature to me, as far as exercising even when I don't want to and not putting certain foods and drinks in my body. (Sugar, carbs, all that bad stuff in moderation) I actually have a hard time finishing the food on my plate because I get satisfied faster. I must admit I have been flubbing up a little but hey it was my birthday weekend but I'm getting back on track.
I'm actually enjoying doing this weight loss thing the right way, it feels good because the changes in my health lifestyle aren't so drastic that I wont fall off the wagon the moment I eat a pack of M&M's or something with bread in it. I'm learning my body, and it's kind of fun to figure out what foods and exercises work for me. This is definitely a life change and I don't mind it one bit because when I'm in my 40's I'm going to be one of the hottest mom's on the block, lol.
Besides all that I found out a lot of the things I'm doing now is setting me up for a healthier future as far as heart disease, diabetes, high cholesterol and so on. It's funny because I thought when I was diagnosed with PCOS that I'd have such a hard time getting my body on track but I realize that it's just a stepping stone which is encouraging me to live a healthier life. I know the way I want my body to look isn't going to happen over night and it's something that I have to maintain and work hard for and it's making me happy that I have the support of the people I love. *Vato*
I'm adding jumping rope and more yoga this week, I'll keep recording my progress on here to keep me motivated!!
As far as my diet changing I'm having less breakouts and the dark marks on my face are getting a lot lighter, and I'm more regular (TMI, I know, lol).
I know I'm getting used to all these changes because it starting to become second nature to me, as far as exercising even when I don't want to and not putting certain foods and drinks in my body. (Sugar, carbs, all that bad stuff in moderation) I actually have a hard time finishing the food on my plate because I get satisfied faster. I must admit I have been flubbing up a little but hey it was my birthday weekend but I'm getting back on track.
I'm actually enjoying doing this weight loss thing the right way, it feels good because the changes in my health lifestyle aren't so drastic that I wont fall off the wagon the moment I eat a pack of M&M's or something with bread in it. I'm learning my body, and it's kind of fun to figure out what foods and exercises work for me. This is definitely a life change and I don't mind it one bit because when I'm in my 40's I'm going to be one of the hottest mom's on the block, lol.
Besides all that I found out a lot of the things I'm doing now is setting me up for a healthier future as far as heart disease, diabetes, high cholesterol and so on. It's funny because I thought when I was diagnosed with PCOS that I'd have such a hard time getting my body on track but I realize that it's just a stepping stone which is encouraging me to live a healthier life. I know the way I want my body to look isn't going to happen over night and it's something that I have to maintain and work hard for and it's making me happy that I have the support of the people I love. *Vato*
I'm adding jumping rope and more yoga this week, I'll keep recording my progress on here to keep me motivated!!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Vingt et un!
SO I'm finally 21, it just feels really good to say...and type. I spent the weekend in Las Vegas and although I didn't get to see the Aussies (Thunder Down Under) review, lol, I did have a fabulous time.
My mother, my good friend D and I spent the weekend in the Paris Las Vegas Hotel and gambled and drank our little hearts out (well at least I did and mom hit 1G with one pull of the slot machine off of $20!). The casino section was filled with smoke and I could have sworn I smelled some green, lol, and a lot of drunk folk It was quite funny actually until this man bumped into me, dropping his $30 verre du vin, nearly cut my foot because there were shards all over my foot and red wine spilled on my WHITE leather heels. Then had the nerve to say, "Well thanks!" WHAT?! I could have went off, but I wasn't about to let him ruin my night or my blissful tipsy stupor...anyways the pathways in the hotel were like the coble streets of Paris with the ceiling realistically painted as the sky and restaurants modeled as store fronts. A lot of good French food (crepes, a boulangerie, Le Burger Brasserie, Le Village Buffet), and entertainment (piano wars, standards singing really good classic oldies). The Hotel was corny to an extent but done very classy and the decorum of the hotel was fabulous.
We visited the Bellagio, Bally's, the M&M store, and the Mile of Shops. In the middle of drones of tourists, we managed to make our way down the strip, it's beautiful at night, kind of like a more subtle version of forty deuce in Manhattan.
All in all, May 24th, 2008 was a great day, I got to spend the day with the people I care about and I was happy to listen to all the voicemails and emails wishing me a happy birthday upon my return so thanks to those of you who did!
My mother, my good friend D and I spent the weekend in the Paris Las Vegas Hotel and gambled and drank our little hearts out (well at least I did and mom hit 1G with one pull of the slot machine off of $20!). The casino section was filled with smoke and I could have sworn I smelled some green, lol, and a lot of drunk folk It was quite funny actually until this man bumped into me, dropping his $30 verre du vin, nearly cut my foot because there were shards all over my foot and red wine spilled on my WHITE leather heels. Then had the nerve to say, "Well thanks!" WHAT?! I could have went off, but I wasn't about to let him ruin my night or my blissful tipsy stupor...anyways the pathways in the hotel were like the coble streets of Paris with the ceiling realistically painted as the sky and restaurants modeled as store fronts. A lot of good French food (crepes, a boulangerie, Le Burger Brasserie, Le Village Buffet), and entertainment (piano wars, standards singing really good classic oldies). The Hotel was corny to an extent but done very classy and the decorum of the hotel was fabulous.
We visited the Bellagio, Bally's, the M&M store, and the Mile of Shops. In the middle of drones of tourists, we managed to make our way down the strip, it's beautiful at night, kind of like a more subtle version of forty deuce in Manhattan.
All in all, May 24th, 2008 was a great day, I got to spend the day with the people I care about and I was happy to listen to all the voicemails and emails wishing me a happy birthday upon my return so thanks to those of you who did!
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Go green!
It's been a while, but for good reason, a whole lotta shit goin on (I hate explaining myself sometimes so I wont). But, I am not following the Mayan calendar and today is the 3rd day of the 10th moon. I feel like I need to be in tune with nature so this is my attempt, in addition to cutting back on some unhealthy medicinal practices and eating right (ugh, breakfast) and distancing myself from negativity (even my own). I've noticed my face looking brighter (big ups to iron, omega-3's and Vitamin A, C, E, & K)...
On another note the semester is ending and it's time to kick it into high gear. I'm very pleased so far with my averages but they could be better so I'm grinding now...
Mark your calendars for a very special day coming up, May 24th, the day yours truly was brought into this world, oh how I miss the comfort of my mothers womb but this isn't so bad. I plan on going to Vegas and doing a little bit of everything, can't wait!
Time for Tae-Bo! Au revoir!
On another note the semester is ending and it's time to kick it into high gear. I'm very pleased so far with my averages but they could be better so I'm grinding now...
Mark your calendars for a very special day coming up, May 24th, the day yours truly was brought into this world, oh how I miss the comfort of my mothers womb but this isn't so bad. I plan on going to Vegas and doing a little bit of everything, can't wait!
Time for Tae-Bo! Au revoir!
Sunday, March 2, 2008
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