Ok, so for some reason this past week has been a little tough for me, probably because I've been in a bit of a funky mood but still I persisted. I showed my face at the SBC (summer band camp) for the high school kids held by us, the Mighty Marching Panthers, C-A.....U!!! lol and it was so fun to see kids (black kids) so talented and passionate about something, especially my first love, music.
OK so I was taking pictures this morning of my progress and I realized that the camera does put on extra pounds, I was looking at the screen of the camcorder and then I looked at the mirror and it looked very different, which I was actually sort of happy about...
I went to this sports bar called Barley's last night, had a Blue Muthafucka and GreyG with Cranberry juice, yeah I'm paying for it right now cus my stomach is killing me, lol, today just might be my "off day" for exercising...
Anywho, one of my good friends came back into town whom I haven't seen since before graduation. I didn't realize until I saw her how much I missed her, love ya *Dawn*
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Sunday, June 15, 2008
The Bold and the Beautiful...
Ok, the theme of this past week....Get BOLD. It's been a while since I've been able to muster up the strength to put on a bathing suit, let alone a bikini *Screams* but I put it on and uhm, yeah, to whoever is reading this, this is very bold of me to do...lol...(my apologies for the blurriness/darkness, my camcorder is so sensitive to movement, every time I press the button for a picture to be taken the whole camera wobbles, lol)
Taken this mornin, entering Week 11....
Yeah, so I'm still battling the bulge but I've always been a little hip-y and my tummy has never in my life been flat but these pictures give me hope. I just feel so energetic and I've been sleeping a lot better at night. My goal was to be about 2/3 less of this size by the time fall rolls around and I think I can do it, no I know I can. But I am so NOT putting up the pictures from 10 weeks ago, I'm not EVEN going to embarrass myself, at least not now lets look to the future not the past, lol.
Speaking of getting bold, I knew this guy that was on the brink of stalker-ville and when I told him I didn't want to be bothered with him can you believe this n*gga FLIPPED OUT!?! All kinds of expletives, lol....so I told him to stop calling/texting me because it was harassment "No it's not", he says. "Yes it is, the police told me so", I say. Yeah he b*tched up right after that. lol...everything is cool now.
Taken this mornin, entering Week 11....
Yeah, so I'm still battling the bulge but I've always been a little hip-y and my tummy has never in my life been flat but these pictures give me hope. I just feel so energetic and I've been sleeping a lot better at night. My goal was to be about 2/3 less of this size by the time fall rolls around and I think I can do it, no I know I can. But I am so NOT putting up the pictures from 10 weeks ago, I'm not EVEN going to embarrass myself, at least not now lets look to the future not the past, lol.
Speaking of getting bold, I knew this guy that was on the brink of stalker-ville and when I told him I didn't want to be bothered with him can you believe this n*gga FLIPPED OUT!?! All kinds of expletives, lol....so I told him to stop calling/texting me because it was harassment "No it's not", he says. "Yes it is, the police told me so", I say. Yeah he b*tched up right after that. lol...everything is cool now.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
End of week 9, beginning of week 10!
Well, I just got back from exercising and I'm a little tired but this past week was a pretty good one for me. I rested on Thursday and Saturday but made up for it today and it felt great.
Now, I hate running, absolutely hate it, but fortunately it works, lol. My thighs were a little sore earlier in the week from lunges but by tonight I was doing pretty good, I managed to lunge the whole field, back and forth and it felt so good to get it done.
So this week I've come to the conclusion that everything is mental, from getting the motivation to get up every morning to pushing myself beyond what my body thinks it can't do. While running I got really tired at one point, well at least my chest did, lol. But I realized that my legs were perfectly fine and hadn't given out yet, they burned but nothing unbearable so I started reapeating a mantra in my head, just motivating myself to push through that last stretch and it's worked, in addition to a little prayer (asking the man upstairs for strength physically and mentally). I'm actually really proud of myself for sticking to this and my body is actually respnding very well to all the changes that it's gone through these past weeks. At this point I'm not really as concerned about having the perfect bod more than I am being healthy, the results are just an added bonus to me!
I feel like I'm my own cheerleader but it's ok, it's fun! lol
Go Team Tiffany!!!
Oh yeah, I have been taking pictures of my progress but I'm not going to put them up just yet, soon my friends, soon...
Now, I hate running, absolutely hate it, but fortunately it works, lol. My thighs were a little sore earlier in the week from lunges but by tonight I was doing pretty good, I managed to lunge the whole field, back and forth and it felt so good to get it done.
So this week I've come to the conclusion that everything is mental, from getting the motivation to get up every morning to pushing myself beyond what my body thinks it can't do. While running I got really tired at one point, well at least my chest did, lol. But I realized that my legs were perfectly fine and hadn't given out yet, they burned but nothing unbearable so I started reapeating a mantra in my head, just motivating myself to push through that last stretch and it's worked, in addition to a little prayer (asking the man upstairs for strength physically and mentally). I'm actually really proud of myself for sticking to this and my body is actually respnding very well to all the changes that it's gone through these past weeks. At this point I'm not really as concerned about having the perfect bod more than I am being healthy, the results are just an added bonus to me!
I feel like I'm my own cheerleader but it's ok, it's fun! lol
Go Team Tiffany!!!
Oh yeah, I have been taking pictures of my progress but I'm not going to put them up just yet, soon my friends, soon...
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Brooding
So my eyes and my heart have been open to some wonderful things, and some not so wonderful, although I'm not about to put ALL my business on blast I can definitely say my outlook on a few situations is a lot different...I'm not much of a poet and I'm feeling a little empty right now, but the mood I'm in has lead me to this...
Head Heart Coordination 6/7/08
Ears to the door
Eyes to the floor
I can't take this anymore
Your heart is fleeting
My soul is bleeding
For me, what exactly do you have in store??
For your words rarely sparkle
My knees don't weaken
Actually they've gotten stronger...
From bearing the brunt of your burden
Butterflies have left my stomach...
Through my bowels,
Yep, you have that **"it" factor
That's for certain
Nothin' personal.
I love poetry, so colorful...lol
Head Heart Coordination 6/7/08
Ears to the door
Eyes to the floor
I can't take this anymore
Your heart is fleeting
My soul is bleeding
For me, what exactly do you have in store??
For your words rarely sparkle
My knees don't weaken
Actually they've gotten stronger...
From bearing the brunt of your burden
Butterflies have left my stomach...
Through my bowels,
Yep, you have that **"it" factor
That's for certain
Nothin' personal.
I love poetry, so colorful...lol
Thursday, June 5, 2008
What's in a name...
When I looked up Tiffany years ago I found it's the Medieval form of Theophania (there are various spellings of this). In addition I found:
1200 AD - "Tifinie" is used in Old French to mean "Epiphany." It derived from a similar Late Latin word which in turn came from the Greek "theophaneia," meaning an appearance or manifestation of God. ("Theo" = God, "phaneia" = appearance; the "phan..." element is related to such words as "phantom," "fantasy," and "fancy," but not to the "fan" in "fan club" or "fanzine," which is short for "fanatic," and is from a completely different etymological source.) A later French spelling is "Tiphanie."
Which is kind of interesting because my Mom's name, Angela, means messenger of God...even more interesting my real Father's name, Alwyn, (a variation of Alvin) means supernatural being...
And I usually don't do this but I had to jack it from RawDawgBuffalo, thanks! lol
1200 AD - "Tifinie" is used in Old French to mean "Epiphany." It derived from a similar Late Latin word which in turn came from the Greek "theophaneia," meaning an appearance or manifestation of God. ("Theo" = God, "phaneia" = appearance; the "phan..." element is related to such words as "phantom," "fantasy," and "fancy," but not to the "fan" in "fan club" or "fanzine," which is short for "fanatic," and is from a completely different etymological source.) A later French spelling is "Tiphanie."
Which is kind of interesting because my Mom's name, Angela, means messenger of God...even more interesting my real Father's name, Alwyn, (a variation of Alvin) means supernatural being...
And I usually don't do this but I had to jack it from RawDawgBuffalo, thanks! lol
What Tiffany Means
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 You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. |
This is pretty dead on if I do say so myself, though I think I have more of a Type B personality, and the last line, I've been trying to settle down since I was 10, lol.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Congratulations, it's a.....!!!!!
I'm going to get a lot of slack for this but this is something that's been on my mind for a while and I can't hold it anymore!!!!! Pregnancy.
Now, I don't know if people are bored, lonely, horny, if it's a fad or if they really think they're ready for a child but I swear, they thought teenage pregnancy was on the rise, try "early twenties" pregnancy. Man, I want to say about 75% of the girls I graduated with from high school were either pregnant then, pregnant now or already has a 2-4 year old child. DON'T GET ME WRONG I truly believe children are blessings but damn, this isn't 1866, we do not have to wed early or bear children early so why now? Do they not want to live their young lives to the fullest?
How I see it, you have kids early and/or marry early and have kids right away you don't really get a chance to experience your own life by yourself and I believe it is absolutely necessary to enjoy time with yourself before you start devoting yourself to someone else...and a new family. Shoot, you don't even get to know your partner as well because you're so busy working to take care of your "new accessory". You spend your lives raising your kids and when they go off to college and get along with their own lives you're stuck in this house with a spouse whom you realize you really don't know, then you start calling for your kids to come home EVERY holiday possible, even St. Patricks Day, lol...ok, a little extreme, but hey, I've seen it happen...
Ok ok, some people do have connections and they do last a long time but they are few, far between and fantasy and divorce has steady been on the rise just as single parenting. Needless to say I want a husband who fathers our children.....not a baby daddy.
I figure an average person graduates high school, then undergrad for 4-5 years, then you maybe get an apartment by yourself to fully enjoy not living under your parents wing and providing for yourself, then however long grad school takes, then maybe a doctorate, THEN you finally get to dive into your profession and maybe in the middle of all this chaos you've had time for a relationship, and depending on if it's serious or not engagement and then marriage, time alone with your spouse and then kids once you're financially and mentally stable. Whew! That's a lot and adding kids into the equation really makes things interesting...
I don't think I'm so much as surprised at the pregnancies than I am the amount of people who aren't practicing safer sex. If you're clean, your partner is clean, there's some type of BC and it's monogamous, hey, get busy and have a healthy sex life! But I don't understand the being in the heat of the moment, you had an accident...maybe it wasn't an accident, maybe you trapped him, maybe he trapped you, hmmm...because those 15 minutes of bliss are going to have you jacked up! lol, I'm wilding out a little bit on this subject but it's the truth and you know it, c'mon it's 2008 geeze! That accident could come with a whole lot more than just a baby! I think my views on certain issues have definitely gotten more rigid as I've gotten older...
Some might say I'm being insensitive, some might say these words may come and bite me in the ass some day but shit, I'm tired of keeping quiet, I'm seeing A LOT of "accidents" and that shit isn't cool in my book, sorry. But I guess it's also not my issue either, eh? BUT to all the moms and dad's handling their business and the mommies to be, I wish you nothing but the greatest that life and your bundles of joy have to offer you!!!
JMO!!! :)
Now, I don't know if people are bored, lonely, horny, if it's a fad or if they really think they're ready for a child but I swear, they thought teenage pregnancy was on the rise, try "early twenties" pregnancy. Man, I want to say about 75% of the girls I graduated with from high school were either pregnant then, pregnant now or already has a 2-4 year old child. DON'T GET ME WRONG I truly believe children are blessings but damn, this isn't 1866, we do not have to wed early or bear children early so why now? Do they not want to live their young lives to the fullest?
How I see it, you have kids early and/or marry early and have kids right away you don't really get a chance to experience your own life by yourself and I believe it is absolutely necessary to enjoy time with yourself before you start devoting yourself to someone else...and a new family. Shoot, you don't even get to know your partner as well because you're so busy working to take care of your "new accessory". You spend your lives raising your kids and when they go off to college and get along with their own lives you're stuck in this house with a spouse whom you realize you really don't know, then you start calling for your kids to come home EVERY holiday possible, even St. Patricks Day, lol...ok, a little extreme, but hey, I've seen it happen...
Ok ok, some people do have connections and they do last a long time but they are few, far between and fantasy and divorce has steady been on the rise just as single parenting. Needless to say I want a husband who fathers our children.....not a baby daddy.
I figure an average person graduates high school, then undergrad for 4-5 years, then you maybe get an apartment by yourself to fully enjoy not living under your parents wing and providing for yourself, then however long grad school takes, then maybe a doctorate, THEN you finally get to dive into your profession and maybe in the middle of all this chaos you've had time for a relationship, and depending on if it's serious or not engagement and then marriage, time alone with your spouse and then kids once you're financially and mentally stable. Whew! That's a lot and adding kids into the equation really makes things interesting...
I don't think I'm so much as surprised at the pregnancies than I am the amount of people who aren't practicing safer sex. If you're clean, your partner is clean, there's some type of BC and it's monogamous, hey, get busy and have a healthy sex life! But I don't understand the being in the heat of the moment, you had an accident...maybe it wasn't an accident, maybe you trapped him, maybe he trapped you, hmmm...because those 15 minutes of bliss are going to have you jacked up! lol, I'm wilding out a little bit on this subject but it's the truth and you know it, c'mon it's 2008 geeze! That accident could come with a whole lot more than just a baby! I think my views on certain issues have definitely gotten more rigid as I've gotten older...
Some might say I'm being insensitive, some might say these words may come and bite me in the ass some day but shit, I'm tired of keeping quiet, I'm seeing A LOT of "accidents" and that shit isn't cool in my book, sorry. But I guess it's also not my issue either, eh? BUT to all the moms and dad's handling their business and the mommies to be, I wish you nothing but the greatest that life and your bundles of joy have to offer you!!!
JMO!!! :)
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